So now - here we are.
After a few months of stopping and starting - buying a cross-trainer, promising myself to eat healthier, giving up fast food and finally realising that none of that worked if I wasn't committed, I got here.
Another friend had started Jenny Craig - and had fantastic success - when I realised it was something I could do too.
If I wanted to see another birthday - I would take my chance.
I suggested it to my friend Teena and she thought it was a fantastic idea.
She even offered to help me get started by paying for my initial fees.
I made a call while on holiday and arranged to see a consultant at the local centre when I returned.
I told close friends that I was planning to start and everybody had the same reaction - "Wow, Apes, that's fantastic."
Jess was right.
I probably should have realised that.
People cared - they wanted me to be happy and healthy.
I saw my consultant and felt free to be honest about all the reasons I was the way I am.
I thought I'd cry, or be embarrassed, or something - but I just felt relieved.
I was in the hands of experts and I was going to make it work.